Reflection

As I sit here contemplating my next move, my mind moves to a scene of reflection; reflecting on my past and reflecting of my present, and the possibilities of where I could be as well as where I would like to be.  I began thinking about several things in my past that lead me to this point within my life and I can't help but wonder how things could have been had I not made certain decisions, some good and some bad.  For instance, I am sitting here with a set number of student loans that I have to pay back.  I can't help but think had I not transferred from a community college where I received multiple grants to taking out a bunch of loans at a 4year college were worth it considering I am not even in my field of study. 

In any choices that you make it is very important that before you act on your instincts to do a little research first.  Write down all of the pro's and con's of that decision and then do a little more research.  Talk to someone that has gone through the same decision making or is going through it so that you have another outlook on what can happen. That saying "I wish I would have known then what I know now" is so true.  We have all been in the instance where we weren't thinking about the later outcome, but instead wanting the right now satisfaction.  It is an epidemic of today's society which is why so many people are in debt, divorced, and stressed.  Let me leave you with a quote

“Reflect upon your present blessings -- of which every man has many -- not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.” ― Charles Dickens



Pacman VS Bradley

This fight to me was an excellent fight because Bradley held his own with Pacman.  They went 12 rounds of hard hitting excitement. I was one among many that were routing for Bradley and I have to tell you I was stunned to find out that the judges had a split decision and gave the title to Bradley.  Timothy Bradley an unbeaten (29-0) champ over eight-time world champion Manny Pacquiao (54-4-2).

Two judges scored the WBO welterweight title fight 115-113 for Bradley, The third judge gave Pacquiao a 115-113 edge.  The results were loudly jeered by a near-capacity crowd in the arena, many of whom stood stunned at their seats.

I watched the fight with family and friends, and they believe this decision was swayed because they judges in Vegas feel as though the Mayweather and Pacquiao fight will not take place any time soon.  They feel as though this decision was due to Bradley being from California.  I believe that it is possible that there could be some truth to these statements, but I also feel there should be a rematch because clearly with the scores that were present to us Pacman clearly won this fight and even though his reputation won't be shattered much it is the principal of the matter and if he won don't take that from him.  We can all see in Bradley's eyes that he feels the same way.  But either way this was an excellent fight, kept us on the edge of our chairs cheering them on.  Tell me what you think!

A CSR's Worst Nightmare....

Rejections

I called you yesterday and you didn’t seem to answer

I began to worry, so I called you within an hour later

Some lady answered finally and told me you were busy

What is it that you want from me, you told me to call you now you’re ducking and dodging me

All I wanted was to help you fulfill your destiny

I tried you again this evening and got a faint “stop calling!” was that meant for me?

So I decided to take a breathe and tried calling you again

I explained my reasoning; all you said to me was that you weren’t interested

That it was all a mistake and my call was just in vein

How could this be, me with out you is like you without me a brand new tragedy

I’m taking down notes as I update your status

I try not to take your tone so personal, but its kind of hard not to

Trying to find different ways to console you

I guess that’s what rejections are all about, just rolling with the punches

So I’m just going to leave you with a goodbye and a thank you

Thank you for your time and I wish the best for you

As I hang up the phone all I’m thinking bout is “onto the next one”

You win some and you lose some

 it’s all in how quickly you can recover

Rejection, a rejection, what is a rejection

“To refuse to accept, acknowledge, use, believe, etc.”

Oh well, its time to be optimistic and just roll with the punches

I hope the next call I make doesn’t lead to another rejection

(This poem was inspired by my job as a National Pre-Admissions Rep for a well known school; I hope you all enjoyed it)

By: Tracy Kelly Jr.

June 7, 2012

Optimistic

Optimistic

Believing in a greater outcome

Looking to a better ending

Sheltering oneself from believing that there is an end to this beginning

What do you see when you look in the mirror

Can you see all that you have accomplished, lost, and do you like what you see

What is it that you hide behind those blemishes and crows feet

Being optimistic is the way of life; wanting to be on top #1 to say the least

You see, being optimistic isn’t what got you here but being determined, proud, and striving for greatness is what we speak

Being optimistic is all good, but what has it gotten you lately

Sweeping your drama under the rug for those not to see

Hoping for the best is all that you have left

I hope this optimistic mindset doesn’t send you to an early death

By: Tracy Kelly Jr.

June 7, 2012

Struggles

Struggles

Struggling with the decision, do I stay or do I go

Enjoying my life but wanting so much more

To be able to travel and see the world

 recapturing my youth and those faint dreams once more

a town full of good and bad memories to one of a new beginning

What would become of me by leaving my family

My life has been nothing near easy

Learning to love only to lose it

 meeting long lost grandparents only to lose them

Being hurt only to hurt you

Crying over health concerns of our loved ones who would imagine

Why do bad things happen to good people

I said my prayers and tried to live a god fearing life

As a man we are taught to keep our feelings bottled up inside in hopes not to be called little bitches

The struggles of a man you have no idea, holding the world on our shoulders and not being able to trust many with even our littlest secretes.

I struggle every day to be the man I’m suppose to be

A provider, a leader, a father, a husband, a son and even your best friend

The walls seem to always feel like they are closing in, but with God on my side there’s nothing that I can’t accomplish

So with that being said here’s a prayer burnt on my chest for you to always remember

“God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.”

By Tracy Kelly Jr.
June 6, 2012

True Love Never Ends...

True Love Never Ends

Le Veritable Amour ne finit jamais

Sitting here reminiscing about all the memories

Some were good and some were bad

There were even times we made each other mad

You see there, I had to gigle to myself. Some of them damn arguments were just too ridiculous for words

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks

How is it that I am sitting here, indulging in the memories

When you should be here holding me, kissing me, making love to me

How did this happen, our love a distant memory

Fighting over insecurities

Mis-conducting of trust, respect, and feeling underappreciated; yea that was our down fall

So where do we go from here, how do we pick up the pieces

From my lips to Gods ears I thought you were my keeper, my ride or die chick, and my down for whatever

But as they say “All Good Things Come To An End”

But how could this be when I have so much more to give

I thought I gave the best of me as I received; now it’s just a fading memory

After the smoke clears within the next even or odd years, one thing I want to stay true is the friendship that we share

You as my best friend and I as yours because I love you my love always and forever

Je t’aime mon amour pour toujours et toujours

By: Tracy Kelly Jr.
June 6, 2012