Reflection of ones life seems to occur every few months as of late. Who knew reaching 32 would be so taboo, second guessing your every move. What happened to living life to the fullest leaving no door unturned....hahaha
See I lived my life with rules, the way of the American Dream. Married young, got my MBA, had 3 children, purchased my first home all by 29. But at 32 who would have knew I be in the process of divorce, not working in my field of study, moving back to an apartment, and now I have become what I thought I never be...A weekend dad!!! Granted my kids drive me nuts but bring me joy, I'm not a morning person but I love waking up a little early to watch them sleep.
You see, when you grow up in a single family home you know the importance of wanting to maintain your family, but now I understand sometimes people fall out of love, but as long as the parents see eye to eye the kids remain happy and do well in school. I couldn't be more prouder of what we have created, 3 beautiful intelligent bundle of joys. I want to be someone they can be proud of, showing them that hard work and determination truly pays off.
So I hold my head up and fight my way everyday to accomplish each of my goals guiding kids down the right path. Still I rise, rise at the crack of dawn to put food on the table, clothes on their backs and provide funding for school activities. Enduring the strain of a job that I'm not happy with and push on because it pays the bills. Not giving up on my dreams of providing the best childhood for my kids while also pursuing my dreams of entering into the Human Resource Field or Property Management. Kissing, hugging, and telling my children how much I love them. These are the struggles of man, working hard to provide for his family and not giving up, being their financially, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically for his kids. Biting my time because my day to shine will come, looking slightly at my past with a smile on my face because it has made me the man that you see today. Walking tall fighting the feeling of regrets looking forward because tomorrow won't be like yesterday.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Kim Kardashian and Kris Humphries got married in 2011 and within 72days Kim decided to call it quits and file for divorce. I for one was not surprised, I don't believe she should have married him to begin with. First off, he was very disrespectful to the family, he picked her up and threw her on the bed and in the ocean like a rag doll, and he was very immature. She on the other hand was all about herself and wouldn't budge on giving him space to put his stuff in her house.
But there are speculations that Kris is asking for a $7million settlement to go away as he felt as though Kim tricked him into marriage just for the cameras...Well Kim is standing her guns saying he doesn't deserve a penny and I don't blame her. I think Kim married him for love but more so for the desperate need to be married more than anything. I think she was still in love with Reggie Bush and she was just desperate to get over him.
But I think it is BITCHASSNESS, that this "MAN" is sitting here being this vindictive because he is feeling some type of way because he wasn't laying the pipe good enough to keep Kim around. We are always having something to say when a woman is being this vindictive trying to take the man's money when divorce is involved, so why is it ok that he is doing this to a woman...Exactly!!! Complete waste of the court systems time, the judge needs to throw the book at him.
Which brings me to the fact that they had a settlement hearing and low and behold Kris doesn't show up because he was stuck in New York. Well the judge was not pleased about this and gave Humphries lawyer an ear full before rescheduling the hearing.
I don't know about you but I am over this entire case and wish he would just settle for his losses and just sign the damn divorce papers so they can all move on with their lives.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Thursday, November 29, 2012
I don't know what your situation is, but I am recently separated after a 15/16 year relationship, married for 8, with three kids, and 31 years of age. I am at a point in my life where I just want to focus on my kids, myself, and just have some fun...I am not looking for a relationship, a new wife, a new babies mom; since I have a vasectomy, or a boo. I am upfront with every new woman that I come in contact with, so why do they think they can change my mind after only a few times of kicking it? I'm flattered that they would even consider being with me long term, but that just isn't what I am looking for. I explain this to them from jump street.
I prefer older women because I find that they don't like to play games and are straight to the point like myself, but for some reason they are in search of a husband. So I try going for the ones within the mid 20's and apparently they are looking for a total package of husband and baby daddy. Seems like I can't win, guess what they say is true its a hard knock life dating after 30 especially when you been off the market for so long. Hopefully I can find a balance of someone looking for the same thing I am; a friend to kick it with from time to time, no strings attached, confidence, has her own spot as do I, can make me laugh, is upfront and understandable about what it is and how it is, and speaks their mind, no time for jealousy and a no nonsense woman that is a lady in the street and freak in the sheet. I don't think that is too much to ask for....
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Monday, October 1, 2012
Love Poems - Your Essence by Nancy Ness
This is a beautiful poem...click the link above in red.
It states that the poem is about that To love one another from afar is to engrave each other's essence within our hearts. Occasionally, love may endure separation - But, unfortunately it's rare. Most of us have had this experience at some time in our lives, and we've grown from it.
For me, after reading the poem before learning what its true purpose was, I assumed the writer was saying:
I have admired you from afar. Longing for you, getting a faint scent of your essence. The closer I get embarks a new journey. An exciting awakening of new heights that just one look from you is enough, but the touch of you still remains a mystery and I wait for the moment to be wrapped in your essence of beauty.
I hope you enjoy this poem by Nancy Ness as much as I did.