Struggles

Struggles

Struggling with the decision, do I stay or do I go

Enjoying my life but wanting so much more

To be able to travel and see the world

 recapturing my youth and those faint dreams once more

a town full of good and bad memories to one of a new beginning

What would become of me by leaving my family

My life has been nothing near easy

Learning to love only to lose it

 meeting long lost grandparents only to lose them

Being hurt only to hurt you

Crying over health concerns of our loved ones who would imagine

Why do bad things happen to good people

I said my prayers and tried to live a god fearing life

As a man we are taught to keep our feelings bottled up inside in hopes not to be called little bitches

The struggles of a man you have no idea, holding the world on our shoulders and not being able to trust many with even our littlest secretes.

I struggle every day to be the man I’m suppose to be

A provider, a leader, a father, a husband, a son and even your best friend

The walls seem to always feel like they are closing in, but with God on my side there’s nothing that I can’t accomplish

So with that being said here’s a prayer burnt on my chest for you to always remember

“God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.”

By Tracy Kelly Jr.
June 6, 2012