LOL, Listen Linda Linda Linda...

This Video is hilarious.  He is so lucky he is cute because had this been our generation as a kid we would have been punched in the face lol.  Especially, calling our parents by name.

Realty Stars Need A Reality Check...

I don't know about you, but I for one love to love my reality television.  But when the reality tv stars begin feeling themselves a little too much, I have a problem with it.  I have been watching RHOA, and have you notice how NeNe has been trying to flex on all the girls like she is the top dog of the show?  She pissed me off when she was talking about Kandi's production and how she just got off this big name producer....And Soooo...Didn't your show get canceled and aren't you a guest on Glee, but how often do you appear?  See you should have jumped off your high horse and got on Kandi's train because everything she has touch thus far has become very successful.  Not to mention some of the names that have been dropped that will be cast in the play, you had to be a damn fool.  Like they say "What he giveth he can taketh away."  and you should be a shamed of yourself for how you have been behaving.  When RHOA first hit the scene I didn't like Nene because I thought she was a bully to Kim then last season when all things were falling into her lap she became likable, but now I am on the fence.  I think she has a lot of potential to go places but she is not a great actress, but first she must humble herself once again and instead of hating on the rest perhaps work with them.

And what was up with Cynthia sitting there allowing NeNe to call her husband out his name...I wouldn't have been with that, she is just too disrespectful.  I for one am tired of Kenya always trying to cause trouble for Phaedra and Apolo but I am also tired of him being so childish and naive thinking that his friendship with Kenya is more important than that of his families.  Its a matter of time before Phaedra gets tired of him and divorces his butt and you know she a lawyer so I'm sure that prenuptial agreement is lock and sealed.  Well lets keep watching because I know its only going to get better!!!

Proud dad rant...

Dad is the one that is suppose to show you how to be a man; how to treat a woman, how to throw a ball and how to tie a tie.  I hold this true and pride myself on being a good dad.  I think there is always room for improvement; as we weren't made to be perfect, so every little free time I get I try to spend with my kids and on days I don't I talk to them via text, IM or phone.  The bond is true. I tell them every day that I love them and when they're sleep I kiss their foreheads and whisper daddy loves you.

As we embark on this new adventure with my kids growing up, my oldest has decided to play baseball.  I couldn't be prouder.  I never had a chance to go shopping for uniforms and sporting equipment with my dad when I reached the age of 10, so I never really got into sports...it was all about the books and technology.  But I try to find different activities to do with my kids so that we can bond on many levels like horseback riding, traveling, etc.  I joke with my kids, watch tv shows they like, and pretend to be a big kid sometimes but that's just me.  Now my middle child is saying he wants to play basketball and my youngest wants to be in dance and become a cheerleader and play baseball like her big brother.  I love my kids and will die for them.  Even though they call me mean dad sometimes and I give them hard times when they wait til I sit down after I already asked if they were hungry, to watching me fix lunch and then say can you make us something to eat lol.  I still will move mountains for them because they're my world and I couldn't imagine a day without them. This has been another proud dad rant, thank you for listening...

The After Shock

Ice On Bigelow Blvd. Leads To Multi-Car Crashes « CBS Pittsburgh

Time to wake up, take a shower, get dressed, eat breakfast, watch TV or listen to music to clear your head before your day begins.  You think to yourself, this is going to be a good day because I am blessed to have been able to open my eyes once more.  You may think about the things you need to do for the day, think about family and friends, but no one ever thinks...Today I am going to be in an accident; today maybe my last; today my faith will be tested.  I know on December 15, 2013 I didn't.

It was a regular day, waking up getting ready for work, listening to music and joking with my kids.  I'm leaving the house and because it had snowed the night before, and I like many others are fearful but capable of driving in the snow, I decided to take a different route hoping to stay on flat land.  I approached Bigelow Blvd, passing Herron Ave, got a few feet further and began to slide and slide and slide some more.  I turned side ways and eventually regained control of the wheel, got over to the side of the road and put on my hazard lights.  As I looked into my rear view mirror I noticed an SUV begin to slide, as I did, but getting closer and closer and before I had time to react, the unthinkable happened and I found myself a victim of an accident that became a several car pile up.  It was like something out of a movie.  Everything seemed to be in slow motion, ears ringing, panicking  because my driver door wouldn't open, to finally get help out of my vehicle by a police officer and my mind is racing because my van has been totaled.

Fast forward a bit two days later after picking up my rental car.  I'm heading home and there's no snow or anything on the ground but I feel extra cautious today.  A car stops abruptly in front of me so I put on my breaks, but here I find myself looking into my rear view mirror once more and an SUV is getting to close to my rear that I panic in my head and have flash backs to that day.  I took a deep breathe and continue driving, even more cautiously than before; hands at 10&2, shoulders hunched up, back stiff, praying the rest of the way home.  Once I arrive I turn off the car to thank the man above, step out of the car and enter my home, sit on the couch, get into my feelings and began to cry.  I tried to hold it in as long as I could.  What is happening to me, I am a man and I can handle this.  I will not let this get the better of me I began to think. I am one that tries to hold in my feelings and work through my problems on my own and sometimes it begins to become to much for one to handle.  So I confide with one of my best friends that years ago I had a dream where I died in a car crash driving on wet pavement on the parkway.  I then begin to think bout the day of my accident and the look of my van and thanking the Lord that my kids weren't with me on that day.  

Now two weeks have past I'm in the car with a new friend that is driving and its snowing again.  We both began to discuss our concerns with the snow and how we both had car accidents and how they have affected us.  We are easing down the road which has a slight slant to it.  I can't help but brace myself and clinch to the chair and check to make sure my seat belt is safely secure still.  Thank goodness for the salt truck that day as we followed him all the way to our destination.

I ask you, am I the only one..What is to become of me...Why must I endure this agony...What is the meaning of these episodes of fear each time I ride in a car and see signs of snow or ice.  Some call it Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.  What is this you ask?  "Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can develop following a traumatic event that threatens your safety or makes you feel helpless.

Most people associate PTSD with battle-scarred soldiers—and military combat is the most common cause in men—but any overwhelming life experience can trigger PTSD, especially if the event feels unpredictable and uncontrollable.

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can affect those who personally experience the catastrophe, those who witness it, and those who pick up the pieces afterwards, including emergency workers and law enforcement officers. It can even occur in the friends or family members of those who went through the actual trauma.

PTSD develops differently from person to person. While the symptoms of PTSD most commonly develop in the hours or days following the traumatic event, it can sometimes take weeks, months, or even years before they appear."(http://www.helpguide.org/mental/post_traumatic_stress_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm)

So what is to become of this, does it ever go away?  I mean who can go through life with the fear that every time you get behind the wheel or even being a passenger for that matter that you may get into an accident with just the slightest sign of uneasiness to the ride.  I mean every time I see snow and I know I have to get in the car my back begins to hurt all over again.  I don't want to have to take Ibuprofen for the rest of my life to keep my muscle spasms down.  I am a fighter and this too shall pass.  I will overcome this, I will not allow it to take over my life.  "I stay prayed up, that gets me by That's how I made it through my darkest times Yeah I'm a sinner and that's no lie Thank God my prayers are heard cause He knows I try
Yeah I stay prayed up, yes I stay prayed upSee the only way I made it through my pain is through God's favor"(Kandi Burruss~Stay Prayed Up)

Reflection of me...

Reflection of ones life seems to occur every few months as of late.  Who knew reaching 32 would be so taboo, second guessing your every move.  What happened to living life to the fullest leaving no door unturned....hahaha

See I lived my life with rules, the way of the American Dream.  Married young, got my MBA, had 3 children, purchased my first home all by 29.  But at 32 who would have knew I be in the process of divorce, not working in my field of study, moving back to an apartment, and now I have become what I thought I never be...A weekend dad!!! Granted my kids drive me nuts but bring me joy, I'm not a morning person but I love waking up a little early to watch them sleep. 

You see, when you grow up in a single family home you know the importance of wanting to maintain your family, but now I understand sometimes people fall out of love, but as long as the parents see eye to eye the kids remain happy and do well in school.  I couldn't be more prouder of what we have created, 3 beautiful intelligent bundle of joys.  I want to be someone they can be proud of, showing them that hard work and determination truly pays off. 

So I hold my head up and fight my way everyday to accomplish each of my goals guiding kids down the right path.  Still I rise, rise at the crack of dawn to put food on the table, clothes on their backs and provide funding for school activities.  Enduring the strain of a job that I'm not happy with and push on because it pays the bills.  Not giving up on my dreams of providing the best childhood for my kids while also pursuing my dreams of entering into the Human Resource Field or Property Management.  Kissing, hugging, and telling my children how much I love them.  These are the struggles of man, working hard to provide for his family and not giving up, being their financially, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically for his kids.  Biting my time because my day to shine will come, looking slightly at my past with a smile on my face because it has made me the man that you see today.  Walking tall fighting the feeling of regrets looking forward because tomorrow won't be like yesterday.

Kris Humphries & Kim Kardashian Divorce Still Pending

Kim Kardashian and Kris Humphries got married in 2011 and within 72days Kim decided to call it quits and file for divorce.  I for one was not surprised, I don't believe she should have married him to begin with.  First off, he was very disrespectful to the family, he picked her up and threw her on the bed and in the ocean like a rag doll, and he was very immature.  She on the other hand was all about herself and wouldn't budge on giving him space to put his stuff in her house.

But there are speculations that Kris is asking for a $7million settlement to go away as he felt as though Kim tricked him into marriage just for the cameras...Well Kim is standing her guns saying he doesn't deserve a penny and I don't blame her.  I think Kim married him for love but more so for the desperate need to be married more than anything.  I think she was still in love with Reggie Bush and she was just desperate to get over him. 

But I think it is BITCHASSNESS,  that this "MAN" is sitting here being this vindictive because he is feeling some type of way because he wasn't laying the pipe good enough to keep Kim around.  We are always having something to say when a woman is being this vindictive trying to take the man's money when divorce is involved, so why is it ok that he is doing this to a woman...Exactly!!!  Complete waste of the court systems time, the judge needs to throw the book at him.

Which brings me to the fact that they had a settlement hearing and low and behold Kris doesn't show up because he was stuck in New York.  Well the judge was not pleased about this and gave Humphries lawyer an ear full before rescheduling the hearing.

I don't know about you but I am over this entire case and wish he would just settle for his losses and just sign the damn divorce papers so they can all move on with their lives.