Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Reflection of me...

Reflection of ones life seems to occur every few months as of late.  Who knew reaching 32 would be so taboo, second guessing your every move.  What happened to living life to the fullest leaving no door unturned....hahaha

See I lived my life with rules, the way of the American Dream.  Married young, got my MBA, had 3 children, purchased my first home all by 29.  But at 32 who would have knew I be in the process of divorce, not working in my field of study, moving back to an apartment, and now I have become what I thought I never be...A weekend dad!!! Granted my kids drive me nuts but bring me joy, I'm not a morning person but I love waking up a little early to watch them sleep. 

You see, when you grow up in a single family home you know the importance of wanting to maintain your family, but now I understand sometimes people fall out of love, but as long as the parents see eye to eye the kids remain happy and do well in school.  I couldn't be more prouder of what we have created, 3 beautiful intelligent bundle of joys.  I want to be someone they can be proud of, showing them that hard work and determination truly pays off. 

So I hold my head up and fight my way everyday to accomplish each of my goals guiding kids down the right path.  Still I rise, rise at the crack of dawn to put food on the table, clothes on their backs and provide funding for school activities.  Enduring the strain of a job that I'm not happy with and push on because it pays the bills.  Not giving up on my dreams of providing the best childhood for my kids while also pursuing my dreams of entering into the Human Resource Field or Property Management.  Kissing, hugging, and telling my children how much I love them.  These are the struggles of man, working hard to provide for his family and not giving up, being their financially, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically for his kids.  Biting my time because my day to shine will come, looking slightly at my past with a smile on my face because it has made me the man that you see today.  Walking tall fighting the feeling of regrets looking forward because tomorrow won't be like yesterday.


  1. Love this. Giving me hope and inspiration. Keep your head up and keep doing the damn thing!!!!

    1. Thanks, I love to write, I get my point across better this way. I always feel better when I do